Embrace.Love.Strengthen.Laugh

I'm floored at how amazing my life has been this past week. I'm so blessed to be able to confront the pain of others, extend my heart to them with the sincerest apologies, and them openly love me as they once did. I know that when a lot of hurt is given to those you love not only once but several times it is hard for them to be able to give you much, if anything at all. I think that is the thinking of people who give up to easily and do not allow the time to those they care for to heal and to process. I won't give up. I realize that with all the people that love me and care for me deeply there are still those who are going through a lot of heartache.

One in particular that I miss so much, when I think of the pain I've given her I just bleed tears in my heart. I hope that one day she will want to talk with me so that I can explain things, not that they are excuses for my behavior or reasons...just a simple explanation. At this point I can only wish upon a star that she will one day have me as friend again.

I'm really bad with this stuff because I have all the intentions of the world to keep a blog going for myself and it always fails. But since I am starting everything new for my life I figured I should also start new with this blog. I don't really know what all this blog will consist of but I do know that it will be on whatever I want to share with the world. I hope it's more revealing for myself than anything because I'm discovering myself all over again and I'm also taking the person that was once inside of me and letting her shine for once. I miss her.